mamagaea: (Demon Spike is an Angel)
Yeah, I have herpes simplex. You wanna say sumthin about it? Huh? Do ya? Do ya Do ya Do ya? I thought not!

small snicker


Actually, I welcome this outbreak because I had a really bad day yesterday with very upsetting and horrible dreams and it caused me to have a bad day spent in bed most of the time. I view the outbreak as a release of toxic energies that I can now heal.

I went to sleep around 1 am or so and got up at about 7:30 and read the rest of the book I was reading, "The Golden Compass" by Philip Pullman. I didn't have any dreams before I woke up, which I was very happy about. After I was done with my book, I went back to sleep. I had wonderful dreams involving Disneyland and being part of a welcoming committee in the Sherwood Forest. It was wonderful and fanciful and I got to dress in glittering splendor, watching metallic embroidery weave clothing around me. I had a wishing ring that I didn't need anymore. I was wearing rings on all my fingers already and it didn't fit anywhere. I gave it to the chancellor and he put it on a toy crown on a shelf for safe-keeping, but it activated the crown with lights and movement and it signified the baby in the crib was the true princess of the royal couple. (I think. it was super cool anyway that I provided the final link to the activation of something wonderful) There was lots more involving different parts of Disneyland and stuff, but I won't go into it. Disneyland may make some people angry because of whatever; I just know that my heart belongs there with all the healing that childhood can bring and the rollercoasters and everything else. I just love Disney. Sorry, but I do.

So, today I woke up with "the lip". I decided to take pictures and test how well my new camera phone works. You can find the pics under the cut. And in case any of you were wondering, I am feeling much better today. It took me a long time to wake up. My brain was awake, but I couldn't get my body to move. Some of it would jerk a little and then go dormant again. My foot would rotate, but then go silent. I probably laid there for over 45 minutes waiting for my body to wake up. Finally, when my brain was awake enough to be tired of just sitting there, I said to the heavens "anybody who's floating around out there with positive good intentions, I could use some help waking up now. And yes, I could use help waking up in more than just the one sense, but if you could help me wake up now, I'd really appreciate it." About 20 seconds later, I felt a jerking pull in my midsection, making my center convulse and activating the rest of my body to move and stretch and get going. THANK YOU! And my head is a hell of a lot clearer now too.

So, here's those pics and have a nice day. hugs and love always.

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went to the doctor. told him about my depression. he always said if it lasted more than 2 weeks to come in. Thinking back on everything, I have to honestly say my depression has been underlying and pretty consistent since about February. (hmm. I wonder what could have happened in february?) March was really bad. April lingering. May through Aug was combatting depression with sex, which we all know isn't all that healthy for all it does is cover up the true issues and doesn't deal with anything at all except activate those stupid dopamines. Things have been pretty much icky since then, with ups and downs and not really feeling any significant amount of happiness at all.

so, got prozac. calling the mental health clinic tomorrow. we'll see how things go.

if I thought I could deal with my depression any other way, I would. It's not like I actually want to take medication for this, but my brain just isn't working anymore. It's such a joy having your head collapse onto your chest for over 20 minutes in a deep depression and there really isn't anything you can do but let it happen until you can move again. oh fun, oh joy.

wish me luck.
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Stress hormone linked to depression

By John von Radowitz

A HORMONE released during period of long-term stress has been directly linked to depression for the first time.

Scientists already knew that many people with depression have high levels of the stress hormone cortisol. But it was not clear whether cortisol caused the condition or was a consequence of it. The new study in mice provides strong evidence that long-term exposure to cortisol contributes to the symptoms of depression.

In humans, ongoing chronic stress, such as caring for a spouse with dementia, has been associated with depression.

The researchers exposed 58 mice to a rodent form of cortisol for both short and long periods of time.

The animals were then tested by being placed in a small dark compartment.

Mice given the stress hormone for more than two weeks took longer to emerge from the compartment into a brightly lit open field. They were more fearful and less willing to explore a new environment a sign of the kind of anxiety that accompanies depression.

The findings, published in Behavioural Neuroscience, fit in with other evidence from human groups.

People with Cushing's disease, in which too much cortisol is released, commonly suffer depression.

The scientists from Harvard Medical School in the US, said that knowing the relationship between physiological effects and behaviour may help researchers design new psychiatric drugs.
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April 01, 2006

Deep brain stimulation for depression:

dbs_diagram.jpgThere's a piece in The Guardian discussing recent investigations into treating severe depression using deep brain stimulation - a technique that uses a permanently implanted electrode to stimulate a specific brain area.

This technique has been used to successfully treat some of the movement symptoms in Parkinson's disease and is now being researched to see if it can be applied more widely.

Preliminary research by neuroscientists in Canada and the Netherlands has already suggested that the treatment could prove effective. Last year, Helen Mayberg, a neurologist at Emory University's school of medicine in Atlanta, published the results of a decade of research which pinpointed a 2.5cm-wide part of the brain called the subgenual cingulate region (SCR) as playing a major role in dealing with affective information. The SCR is the lowest part of a deep band of tissue running along the central part of the brain. Dr Mayberg had noticed that this region was overactive in depressed people and that its activity correlated with their changing symptoms. When they were treated with antidepressant drugs, the activity went down.

Link to article from The Guardian

Link to Wikipedia article on DBS.

Link to previous post on Mind Hacks on 'Modern-day psychosurgery'.

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